Saying Goodbye

Saying Goodbye to the People you love is always the hardest thing to do, even when it is the last thing left to do.

I have been looking for a new place to live for the last week.  I have been keeping it a secret for the sanity of both parties.  Although I feel like I did it because I did not want to hurt him or cause more conflict.  However, I probably did it because I do not want him to be mad at me.  I am selfish and I want to be the person that was the winner.

Well I came home today from looking at apartment for 8 hours.  (Still apartment-less) And I get dumped.  Awesome.  It is not like it is the first time he has done this, but for some reason I know this time it is real.  Because this time I am leaving.  I hope one of my applications was the first today so I can just get a place.

Saying goodbye is so hard.